ninja.

(29June2013, 5:54pm)

Ninja: "Truffles..."
Ninja: "You okay? You senyap... Buat hans risau :("


the moment you text me this, i feel like crying. i miss you. i miss sylvia. i miss both of you. no im not okay ninja. i want to hug you. i want to hug sylvia. i don't know whether to reply you or just ignore. i have to fight this feeling of becoming close to you. M said, i have to avoid you so that i will not hurt myself any further. but the more i avoid you, the more i hurt myself. i tak sanggup kecewa kan orang. i tak sanggup ignore orang. i tak sanggup abandon orang. why am i feeling like this ninja? kenapa susah sangat untuk i nak cari kebahagiaan? kenapa orang selalu kecewakan i? kenapa mereka cari i when they are sad and left me when they are happy? do i deserve this ninja? how to fight this? how to be numb? how to become mean? howww? :"(